Human Hands

Perhaps I'm not a true Christian. I was tried.

A woman on the street came up to me asking for money.
Out of gas. Told me her name. Nice body. Arresting.
I thought about having sex with her and refused the request.

For cash, that is. Upon afterthought, I felt bad. Really.
I had a few bucks to spare. Got in my truck and reconsidered.
Looked for her but she'd disappeared. Wow. Quite the cycle.
Her face wasn't too attractive, however, and I moved on.

"Give to whomever asks of it." rolled around in my mind.
But my heart has hardened. Couldn't be bothered.
I could have helped her; instead, I just saw the physical.
Aspect? Goes around comes around? Ruminate on that.

Handling It

Ah... ahimsa. Be at peace. Do no harm. Be careful.
Yes, that approach may be advisable. Think it through.
There are no enemies; there are merely others unfamiliar.
I must read Mere Christianity again. Thoroughly. Soon.

Trouble with diet recently. Find myself aggressively eating.
There's the hunt at the grocery store. Then the preparation.
Would like to 'graze' more delicately. (Need teeth fixed.)
Fruits and nuts. Not much more. Proverbial rabbit food.

Now that it's cooling off, hope to get out walking too.
A bit of a bear; temperature has spiked over 100°again.
Must get back to church more regularly. Read Bible too.
Have not been praying much lately. Need much resolve.


Well, I did order the Lewis book. Chesterton too. Orthodoxy.
Presently reading Martin Gilbert's biography of Winston Churchill.
Now there's a case... his career totally defined by war. And resolve.
Please God I sort it all out and remain in His grace, confidently.