Motivation

Some little activity socially in media. Minimal response. Just had a Python thought... something completely different? Hardly. I'm tired.

Not going anywhere today except later to Bible study. Finishing up 2 Maccabees, which is a paraallel of the first. Did not know that. Got though about half of that before zoning out.

Friend at church gave me this to read. (Very long reading list.) I'd like to get into it today. We can talk about it hence. Got somewhat involved with academic issue orbiting the milieu. Sense they've got no respect. The old question: do you want to be friends or do you wish to compete?

Take it all in stride.

Little walk yesterday seeking above.

At Ease

This will be my last post for a while. In addition to being a food and nicotine addict, I am become an Internet one. Facebook. Twitter. It's got me hooked good; making comments, snarking, trying to prove I can swim with the sharks and run with the wolves. Read the news, the blogs, the commentariat; compelled to compose. I thought it good, the mental stimulation and activity, the challenge of wordsmithing and perfect grammar. It's become obsessive. I need to step away.

I need to address these addictions. I need to pray.
Sweet Jesus, it's all such a distraction. I need to tidy up.

I think I'll be back here before tweeting or shooting the breeze on Facebook. Updates. I mean to read my Bible and get right with The Lord. Stop wasting time. Get healthy. It's all a poor substitute for human companionship. The way it is and I've got to get over that. There'll be someone. If not, c'est la vie.

May

First post this month. 
Just some pictures from the yard.

Went to Bible study. Good to get out. 
Cooped up last few days.

Love the app. Could be better. 
Well, they're right there.

Patience

Coming florals from potted cactus. One of several in the front yard. (Which reminds me I need to irrigate this evening.) Warming quickly. I've yet to turn on A/C. (Reminds me to get it serviced; tuned and gas.) Cool at night. Open windows and ventilate. 

Good day today. Not much sociability at church. Indeed I sat alone for a while in pew after evening Service to see if anyone would approach but no one did, the chats going on peripherally. Had to approach someone myself. Breaking ice. That was it; just one conversation. Sheesh.

Made some Twitter posts. Some good likes. There was one instance of a sense of rejection but can't make too much of minimalist post-postmodern quantum transactions. LOL I got no Amens!

Had to do with theology. Definitely not part of in-group. But think I held my own. No time to explain now.

Luna Palo Verde

Very happy with this picture.
Very lucky to see it. Very nice.

Real Old

Just changed my profile picture to family arms.
Perusing the net, came across old glass too.

Would make a nice bookmark...
but don't use them anymore. LOL

Update on Boredom

Iris, I remember you. How strange.
Is this not most beautiful? Truly...

I reach out again into oblivion. Hmm.

God spare me self-pity. I'm alright.

This too is lovely picture. How I wish, recalling Iris and all, there was a woman to share it with. Wouldn't it be something, given the capability of the Internet, that some old lover sees this and looks me up. How would that be? Yeow! 

I have seen pictures of my ex-wife, of whose status I've no a clue. Formerly quite slim, she's gotten chunky. She holds no allure for me on account of her mean persona and she I'd not care to encounter. Bad luck. But there've been so many since. It would be odd.

A neighbor's yard. I guess I'm feeling forlorn after reaching out to several people at church towards friendship and society. Nothing doing. I've just not gotten any friendly responsiveness; they're nice people but all pretty much set in their lives.

Daisies. Well done! (I have to encourage myself.) Lucky, really.
Good to have these gizmos to make such a beautiful picture.