After Church Composition

Put on the full armor of God,  

so you will be able to stand firm  

against the schemes of the devil.     

                                            Ephesians 6:11

Quite a few changes in 50 years. Adolescence can be silly, no? How much I am become beyond "Don't go there." Liberty good; libertines problematic.

Presently in chapel. Believing Jesus. Earlier reminded He calls us, and calls us friends... if we obey His commands. Absolutely nothing to do with the Rolling Stones. How ridiculous life is.

Saw a PBS fund raising program recently, the geriatric Stones showcased. It was quite odd seeing how the audience was packed with much younger people, especially the women, in a phoney looking groove, singing along. Ridiculous. But I myself was hooked - as an adolecsent. Means nothing to me now. Just happenstance seeing that T-shirt.

Yes, rather the armor of God. Saw this book for sale at church last week. A 19th century tome. $30. Found it online for 99¢. So much to read. A friend at church gave me a book about Genesis and I've committed to read the pastor's lessons on the Old Testament. Oh, I see I've already mentioned that. Have to get to it.

The preacher is speaking of the wonder of Jesus. Who is He? To say, as the apostles did, "You are the Messiah; the Son of God." and mean it, experience it. The pastor says it's more than experience too. Believe it. Jesus is the source of life. Jesus is eternal life.

Frankly, I'm not doing too good, insofar a being good. Still smoking and eating stupidly. I whine that I'm bored. I'm lazy too. Please God, help me to get in line with what is plainly sensible. It's as if I should have this militaristic attitude... discipline. Work at it. Challenge myself. What a putz am I. Idleness indeed. The devil's got a good hold of me; but I know it and I know I'm wrong. God help me.